I get it
the pain
the emotions staining my own life
what holds on
is my love of nature
and all her creatures
it is THAT PAIN
not Jerry
not un-marrying
not lack of confidence
or fear
the tears run
so much deeper
the longing to scream alive
my anger
my hot tears of longing
for balance harmony
UNDERSTANDING
animals, insects, birds, plants, trees
ARE ALIVE
the PROVIDE US
with EVERYTHING we eat use and wear!!!
their bodies become our STUFF
and when will
ENOUGH BE ENOUGH
when we will cease
the killing
humans hate insects and flies
beetles and bugs and slugs
yet without them
our plants would not bear fruit
no rich soil
no pollination
simple damnation
for what is not understood
darkness inside and out
ignorance is bliss
“I did not know” so easy to say
yet we know life exists in the soil
tiny fragile living breathing beautiful  creatures
we adore the whale for her size
we would compromise if her home were
where the building was going to be
yet if tiny and small
we don’t care at all
giving ourselves the right to demolish nature
kill at will whatever we desire
because what WE want
is so much more important
than God’s tiny small creations
who cares
I stare crying
people think I am crazy
perhaps they are lazy
or so indoctrinated in a way of life
that values according to SIZE
horses and dogs in the news
if we abuse them
yet killing a tank full of fish
starving a little bird
never even make the last page
of the newspaper
not worth talking about
after all
the small don’t count
even in human form
size matters
there is too big and too small
too short and too tall
men want a big thing
and if too small
they are made fun of
women too and boobs
SIZE matters
in your looks
your bank account
the size of your house
and the mouse
by the door
is smashed
poisoned and trashed
with celebration
I am shredded even more
because I adore
all of life
wiping my cheeks
will the meek
inherit the earth some day
and play amidst the green grass
with the plants and the bugs
allowing even slugs to have their own place
in the divine perfection
god’s glorious selection
of perfection
where size NEVER matters
and EVERYTHING is welcomed
through the door
where all parts
are found to be whole
and that
is enough

Me Morgine
2-26-2012

even today I talk to the plants
when I need to trim them
spray for bugs with great love
move the slugs
scrub the green crud off my stairs
life deserves appreciation
life matters
healing my tattered soul
longing to grace
this space in a way
which honors
all life
living and breathing
in union
with all
the divine creations
honoring our Oneness
embracing the whole
of the cosmos
the earth
infinity
myself and beyond
embracing the all
with the Love
I am
and came from
into which
I will dissolve
and reemerge
once again
always friends
never ending
love always
me

(c) Morgine Jurdan

My meditation with God this morning…  deep into my meditation …. how do I manifest what I desire….what do I need to “do” differently?

God/Source shared…  we are One, we are WE…there is no You and Me… I am experiencing life through you, as you, with you, inside and outside of you. I experience myself as all of life, as all things. There is nothing too small or large that I am not living myself through it.

I don’t care what happens to any part, because if I did, my eternal PEACE would be missing. I would have judgements, pains, agendas, goals, gains and losses and on and on. Unconditional is without conditions. So I don’t care what you do! That is the part  you really need to “get”!! I want whatever YOU want!! Life is quite literal in that sense.

Why do you do everything you do every day?  Do you do it because you desire to do it, feel a need, feel an obligation, part of a schedule or ritual?  WHY is the question of the day.  You have spent your life doing things feeling you are getting no where when it comes to your desires, yet you have accomplished a great deal. You are quite a different person than you were decades ago. Since you live “with you”, you don’t notice.  Like relatives who notices how much a child has grown or changed, since it was a year since they last saw them and you might not have noticed much at all. True.

Why do you do everything  you do?  Why do you eat what you eat? Why do you eat slowly, savoring your food? Why do you do visualizations, meditations on CD, listen to happy music, do processes to release old emotions, try tapping, energy healing, different diets, taking endless classes? Why?  Because you feel a LACK!  Something is not as you would like it to be!! So you try and FIGURE OUT what “to do” in order to change that thing!!

It does not matter the WHAT you are doing. If you are doing it to change something, you will always be coming from a place of LACK, feeling you do not yet have what you desire.  You are buried inside that prison of beliefs!! You now eat only food which you love, eat slowly and enjoy your food, etc. because you “believe” this will help you lose weight! Yet there are people who gulp their food, eat things you do not even like and are always thin and  healthy! True!!

Donald Trump and others have lost millions of dollars and never worry because they always come back again. They have this built in belief about it. It is very Real for them and they never doubt it! They might not have strong beliefs about relationships, or health, or trust in other areas, however with money, they are “certain” they can turn things around and so they do!  They LIVE knowing that all the time.

You on the other hand, do not LIVE knowing you are vibrantly healthy, are living your passion, living in your ideal home, and so on.  Your DO processes in order to Manifest these things because you “believe” doing them will result in changes.  The Important thing here, however, is the GUILT factor. When things don’t manifest quickly enough or as you desire then you AUTOMATICALLY and Unconsciously FEEL Guilty!! I must not be doing this enough.  I must not be doing it the “right way”.  I need to find something which will work better! I am not eating slow enough, or the right delicious foods, or whatever!

It is SO SIMPLE and you keep making it Difficult!! Just BE the Change you want to See, like that man Gandhi said! BE slender, living your passion, brilliant, wise, strong, inspiring, awesome, engaging…RIGHT NOW!  Become an ACTRESS in your Own Life Play!! Pretend every day, you are living in your ideal home. Talk about it, write about it, draw pictures.  This is how it comes.  Living into your Beliefs! HAVING FUN with it. Exaggerate things! Dream big, bigger and biggest of all!!

There is no “doing to BE”.  There is only BEING and then ideas arise naturally about what “to do” next and next and next!! Play fun music because  you LOVE the music and not because you need to raise your vibration in order to “get something”.  Learn to DO things which already bring smiles and joy to your face!! If listening to a certain meditation is joyful and you LOVE it and it is something which brings you PLEASURE, then do it because it is pleasurable and not because  you want it to help you “fix something”.  Because right there, your boat is going up stream again!!

I feel it would be much easier and much more fun to imagine, pretend, get really exaggerated and laugh about your desires, creating all sorts of scenarios just for the fun of it, rather than… trying to find some process, technique, book, class, healer which is going to “fix you” so you will be able to finally get your desires met!! I thought it was so simple and so easy and humans just keep making it more complex than it need be.

Please release Everything you know about life, or think you know or believe, or wonder about. Just for a moment, as best you can, imagine you know nothing at all. Just for a minute, a moment, or for the day. You Choose.

Pretend for this time you are an actress or actor in a movie dreaming you are Everything in Life, Every Particle of Creation. You are ALL Energy in the Cosmos and Beyond, just for the sheer Fun of it! Expand yourself as Big as you could possibly get! Then even bigger than that!  This is Star Trek, Fantasyland, Fairy Tales! Imagine BIG!!!

Now IMAGINE you are the Mother of All of Creation, all these particles of energy are “your own Children” sort of.  Embrace them All, Each and Every One with your own Unconditional Love …just for this one minute, one moment, one hour, or this one day. Just embrace All That Is …free of any ideas, beliefs, judgments.  Just pretend to Be the Mother of Your Creations, Your Children.  You accept them all, as they are here and now, just this One time.

For this One Brief Moment, imagine sending Wild Organic Abundance to All of Life to help manifest what each part is truly longing for, whatever that is… a home, a relationship, food, love, a job, clean water, fresh air, education, a garden, a car, healing, joy, peace …..  For this One Brief Moment just Zing Every Particle with some Wild Organic Abundance. Then Smile and you are finished!!!

THANK YOU so much for the shift you created in the cosmos today, for the ripple, the wave you sent out through eternity. For this One Precious Moment when all life was ONE held in your own loving embrace. Where everything which separates us, fell away, and everything which binds us together was shared, even though briefly.

YOU make a difference in the world as does each little particle in creation, every day doing the best we each know how to do. Perhaps once in a while, you can take one breath in and out, and Zing a little more Wild Organic Abundance out there into all of life.  Know it does return to you multiplied in more ways than you could ever count.

Thanks for MAKING MY VALENTINE’S DAY, a Day to Remember!

Loving Each of you Always and Forever, Morgine

God simply does Not care Who I Choose to be!

If I am ill, God/the Universe does not “care”.  Being ill is not right, wrong, good, bad… IT JUST FRIGGING  … IS!  I might not enjoy it and so I can CHOOSE Wellness, because I have the FREEDOM to do so. However the Universe is not inspiring me to BE ANYTHING other than Authentically WHO and WHAT I DESIRE and that is all!! I can choose to be a thief, a dancer, an electrician or a movie star.  God does not frigging care!

There are people who make lots of money doing things I would never “choose” to do, some legal, some not. Many are successful creating millions of dollars and they are very happy doing it!  If the Cosmos does live from this place of Unconditionality, then IT has no judgements one way or another. It is only our Human minds which have separated and segregated everything out and we continue to do so, going from being ingrained in our religions of choice, to being Ingrained in our Spirituality of choice! Not much difference, except before this moment, I used to “think” I was making “better” choices!

Up until this moment, I had been “taught” God wants what is “best” for each of us. God wants our joy and happiness and bliss!  I have taught these things myself.  Yet how could this Be from a place of UNCONDITIONALITY?  Because, if God/the Cosmos does want what is “best” for me, then I am creating God as “taking sides”, having bias, seeing what is not good for me and what is good for me.  Puts me right back into judgement again!

In this lifetime, if I was forced into a war, I might die, because I could not take a gun and shoot someone.  Not a “choice” I would desire to make. In other lifetimes and other places, I imagine I might have. Not right or wrong…just Me here right now.

I have spent the last 20 years of my life attempting to “be more spiritual” and to “be more loving” and to “be my authentic, loving, self”.  I have had LOTS of ideas about what that looked like until this moment. Because in reality, each of those preconditioned thoughts takes me AWAY from the present moment and who I am Being right now!

I have practiced LOVING WHAT IS in order to become that naturally, like breathing…. when in reality, this very practice has kept me from FEELING MY FEELINGS in every moment!! Instead, it has helped me store away my anger, sadness, regrets, desires, pain, judgments, because I felt I needed to embrace them all as they arose. Now I can FEEL and EXPERIENCE them fully and embracing and accepting they are a part of me just like everything else!  Allowing myself to be Alive in the Moment, instead of just creating yet another “system” in which to live, which prevents me from being REAL all the time!

AUTHENTICITY cannot be taught. I needs to be LIVED 24/7. A feeling arises and I LIVE it, authentically experiencing it fully, and then I can just release it and go onto the next moment.  There is no need to quantify it, judge it, love it, bless it, make it out to be anything OTHER than what it IS.  A feeling!

On one hand I believe I am so much more than I could ever imagine I am, and…  yet, I am also not less either … because I am not living there right now  …… because THAT is only yet another CONCEPT existing in my “preconditioned mind” attempting to make “some sense” out of life.  There is No either/or…there only IS… Here right now, breathing and taking in and experiencing my moments and making CHOICES, having the FREEDOM to do so.  Making choices, feeling and EXPERIENCING my moments and whatever they bring and onto the next. Free of the “thoughts” that somehow it needs to Be Different because of childhood indoctrinations, or even my spiritual programming. ALL IS WELL IN THE WORLD when seen through the eyes of UNCONDITIONALITY.

Perhaps the  real FREEDOM of the Universe/God/Cosmos lies in our ability to FULLY EXPERIENCE and EXPRESS ourselves without judgment, longing, weighing the right and wrong of every action we have ever done or will do?  Perhaps THIS is the ONLY place from which “I” can really make CLEAR and HONEST choices?  Free of all the Bias my life indoctrination, society, culture, media, schooling,classes,teachers, etc.  have taught me.

I can still LIVE my life and do so from a place that says.. I DON’T CARE what others think about me. I DON’T CARE if I am loved and accepted and cherished by other people or not.  I DON’T CARE because I am making my own Conscious Clear Choices about what Inspires ME right now. In doing so, I can also give others the Freedom to do the same.  Then when we come together in a relationship, or friendship, at work, in an organizations, the connections can be more authentically driven by our inner guidance and not by some outside, artificial indoctrination where we were taught words into which we put all of life, sorted into categories and subjects and values which are based on what our eyes can see, and our hearts barely ever touched.

Love can be excruciatingly painful as much as it can be ecstasy and bliss.  Pain can be an exhilarating experience in which a formerly numb person becomes alive again.  Many people love the bitter taste of coffee or dislike the overly sweet taste  of Baklava. There is so much in life I have been missing, still attempting to be “the light” or to be “more grateful” or whatever the latest lesson and fad has become.  Only when I truly willing to LET GO of Everything I have ever learned, been taught, absorbed, indoctrinated in, can I begin to Live my Own life Authentically and giving myself the Freedom to make the Choices “I” desire.This “might be” The Key I have been missing all along.

© Morgine Jurdan
2-13-2012

the Divine I be
loves me completely
in all forms I adorn
majestic mountains and trees
butterflies, birds, and bees
rainbows and sunshine
love and fear
laughter and tears
no more dividing lines
I am free
seeing ME
in everything I be
I am everyone’s longing
and dreams
waiting to be born
their fear and sorrow
in Every Face
i see the Grace
of MYSELF
every single one
adores and loves me
for beneath it all
the truth revealed
without fear
judgements
or even observations

i give life
Freedom
to be
what I now see
the love which they are
and have always been
no trace of separation
I am playing
ALL Parts of this dance
no boundaries needed
no protecting me from myself
anymore
for I only adore
all parts of me
wanting their freedom too
into that place
infinity graces
allowing anything and everything
endless possibilities
I fall down
my knees kissing the ground
adoring the me
the we that we all are
the stars and galaxies
the yet to be
all of me
in thee and thee and thee
freedom at last
to just be
ME

© Morgine Jurdan
journaling early 1-29-2012

so lost in my life
knives dividing myself
into bits and pieces
that which I am and am not
got to be distracting
acting out all these parts
where do i
start and end
is this me i see before
in the past
or what happened last week
peeking through the sheets
what street am i walking on today
do i play in them all
am i large or small

where can i find myself
wrapping around every corner
do i wind myself neatly or loosely
among it all
climb the ladder of life
husband wife lover saint
gory or glory
I never know
the seeds I sow and where they flow
eternity is mine
no time in and out
only how my thought
seeds the next moment and the next
perplexed by my limitations
or are there none
am i the one
I was searching for

i breathe love into each
particle of creation
peace coming from
humming a new song
along the road
whatever I sew together
is mine
no need to confine myself
dissect myself to pieces
leaving some
taking others
there are no remnants to find
i was blind to the Source
behind it all
me

i am free
being me
everything i will ever or never see
is still within
this infinite field of energy
light so bright it staggers
my human mind
the light i be
within and all around
i abound in beauty

i sound warnings
i am the bloodiest battles
ever fought
the kindest lessons
ever taught
my thread woven into
around and between it all
no longer confined
inside a limited mind

I clash and crash
a sea of trash before me
the odiferous smell
the mountain piled high as the sky
seething and teething with life
a rotting mess perfuming the wind
can I swim in there and own myself too
the sky
a blue jewel above me
as I sink into this pit before me
can i adore this
embrace every trace

the fist twisted in anger
hits a face leaving its trace
can i grace myself
with this action too
the blue ocean’s waves
which drown the boat
fires blazing to ashes
crashing homes in loam
insects animals humans
birds fleeing burning trees
am I large enough
to own these

Jesus and Buddha
Hitler and the Ku Klux Klan
healthy compost for the garden
nuclear plants leaking in Japan
the greatest lovers in the world
the most brutal assassins
i have fashioned myself into it all
nothing too small
to escape the inner vision
nor too large to escape infinity
i look around
and there is only me
experiencing everything
there is to be
always creating more
to abhor or adore
for i am endless
infinitely creating
new moments
new adventures
gracing it all with one face
my own
sewn together
the grace of divinity
Source
Great Mystery
Energy and Light
Eternity

the sheer beauty in nature
rivers my cheeks
pure joy and bliss
kissing the wonder of me
microscopic creatures till the soil
birds fertilizing life
their beautiful songs
they spread joy, the pollen and seeds
reeds dancing in the wind by the stream
sun beams on the surface
grace the faces
of deer standing near the water’s edge
how can i be
all i see and experience here
i wonder falling to my knees
where do i end and begin
again I breathe it all in
inhale the sweet fragrance of flowers
a rainbow ribbons the sky
I am caressing myself

real love
woven free of conditions
embraces all
calls forth the best
passes all tests
resists nothing
never fails
sails the open sea
freely giving all of itself
to each adventure
for there is no judgment here
no beginning or ending
only a continuous flowing
eternity calling
eager to play all the roles
up and down
all around
in between anything ever seen before
and love adores
all pieces and particles
love embraces free of names
descriptions fall short and confine
defining one into prisons of the mind
real love is blind and only sees perfection
loving
purely for the joy it brings

how do I grace this day
knowing i lay upon myself
as my bed
my head of hair
the air I breathe
all parts of me too
eating myself as food
the cars, computers, homes and phones
I created myself
to experience myself
as ALL of life
Every Thing
to sing all songs
to play all games
without names
every insect is me divine
every animal
each piece of trash
along the road
grass and money
still me

my wisdom imprisoned
only in my mind’s eyes
wanting to divide into sides
right wrong good bad
who is to blame
for my feeling sad
when all fingers point my way
i cannot erase the trace of Hitler
nor wash Jesus from my within my skin
Mother Mary or Teresa
each woven into the tapestry of me
every face is known
all my own
created to play
all the games i can play
together
in all kinds of weather
in different realities
right here now
or far away

i play
with all the particles
with all the parts
with every aspect of me
of creation
always in motion
an ocean endlessly growing
flowing into another place
and time
where I find
myself
always at home
never alone
the All
that I am
and will ever be
the All of ME

© Morgine Jurdan

I scream my right to be me
bare breasts bouncing boldly
standing tall and calling my name
breaking out of the prisons of limitation
attempting to conform our bodies into uniformity
beautiful bare breasts
loving nurturing goddess breasts
free at last

© Morgine Jurdan

As time moved on and lives became more complicated, we created rituals filled with Resolutions and Goals, Intentions and Wants, Releasing and Letting Go.  There are lists to make, journals to write in, calendars and schedules to fill out and keep track of. There will be time later for celebrating one’s success or failure.

I am going to create a New Tradition.  My desire is to Live each Moment of every day with more Conscious Awareness.  To keep my mind out of the past and the future, and instead focused on the here and now with whatever I am doing.  Fully tasting my food, slowly chewing and savoring the delicious chocolate melting on my tongue, mint flavors opening my nostrils as I moan with delight!  Gently stroking my lover’s skin with just the right touch so he shudders with delight.  Melting as I behold a beautiful sunset, rainbow ribbons flowing across the sky as my body softens and dissolves into my chair and we become one. Hearing the birds cheerfully singing the day awake as they weave a smile across my face.  Hugging my child fully, grateful here and now for her joy filled embrace.

Living in a state of Awe and Wonder at exactly how all the billions of things going on in my own body continue to dance along without needing my direction to breathe, beat my heart, digest my food, see, hear, feel, and so much more!  How does a tiny, tiny seed become a hundred year old gigantic redwood?  How can an ant carry more per its size than me? How does  a caterpillar become soup and then emerge a butterfly? So many millions of incredible, mysterious wonders in nature we have yet to discover or understand! Breathtaking beauty abounds all over the planet!

I am choosing to let go and allow my Inner Wisdom, my connection to Source, to our Divine Oneness, to Guide my days.  I then know the perfect actions to take every day to move me forward along my path, from one magical moment into the next, always changing and transforming me and the moment, others, and life itself with my own unique and personal touch!  In loving all, resisting nothing, embracing the now, balance and harmony will be created by me and for me.  Soon new habits will be formed and my Being and Doing will become as natural as my breathing now is.

Maybe everything IS perfect just as it is in every Precious Moment when seen from the perspective of the Divine?  Perhaps I am here to “live life” instead of be lived by the stories, habits and beliefs I have been indoctrinated into for centuries?  Maybe the “unlimited perspective” is all about creating for the joy it brings me and not to achieve a goal or keep a commitment.? If I can learn to truly be present in every moment, the “doing” will arise as naturally as my heart keeps beating and I keep breathing. The world I imagine and live in, where we all are living our dreams, co creating with our love and joy, will become a reality. Not because I worked for years to figure out the “how”. Instead I learned how to BE Me in every moment, and the means to manifest my dreams arose from the inside to be painted outside by my hands upon my own canvas of life, one precious moment, one precious day at a time.

I feel like I have been living in the soup and am ready to emerge as the butterfly!  To love my life and live my love, giving myself to those things which make my heart sing!  Allowing all of me to emerge more beautiful than I could ever imagine before as the caterpillar!  Stunning, sexy, juicy, sensual, creative, vibrant, thriving, healthy and living on the edge of life, jumping for Joy from one Magical Moment into the next, surrounded by millions of like minded friends!! Yippee!!! Hurray for Today and a Million more Magical Tomorrows!!

Morgasmic Morgine
© January 1, 2012

in order to Live
the Life
I am guided to live
to be fully Me …
I need to RELEASE EVERYTHING
every idea about everything I have ever had
ideas about good and bad
success and failure
shame and pain
being “the Light”
right and wrong
waking up or being asleep
evolving into or away from
gratitude
attitudes and personality
authenticity

if I Am it All
and I Know it All
where would all of this
even fit in
would gratitude even be necessary
if I am already that
if Joy was my natural way of being
freedom comes from
playing IN this New space
a place where Inner guides me
with love and grace
all the time

Life (me being it All)
calling to me
presenting itself
knowing and glowing with the radiance
of my personal choices
who know Me better than Me
voices always calling me home
into the wondrous vibrant exciting Unknown
to explore and adore
all that I already Am
for the sheer JOY of Experiencing
3D

every belief held
clouds the truth
blocks it
from ever being seen
only when I am willing to let everything go
that I know
or think I know
or am sure I know
and releasing it anyway …
can the Infinite
really be seen
can I even begin to glean
the extreme abundance arising
waiting and eager to  slide right into
my Being

I am god with skin
I let myself in
into a new place and space
I grace with all of ME
glowing and flowing
engaging and playing
with all the dear brothers and sisters
nature animals plants
all faces I now know are me
my vibrant aliveness shining through it all
i see only me
in all i am being
here and there
and everywhere

the Key
is stepping outside
the paradigm
still confining me
defining me
as “the Light I am”
the brilliance I be
compared to what
i am being asked
called to task
here now
and is even
“the present moment”
what I think it means

can I step through that door
without looking back
knowing more awaits me
then ever before
when I release and free
constructs and structures
beliefs and visions
having me believe
I still exist in between them all

my heart keeps beating
my feet are now running
for the door
clearing the floor
releasing  even expectations
attachments and all
only trust and me
hand in hand
going where I know
i belong
singing the song
of all creation
waiting for me to join
in my own
celebration
free at last
to be
live the dance
I came to be
uniquely
through me
the how
coming
i know
always
when it does

© Morgine Jurdan 12-2-2011

As long as I think, feel, act “as if” something needs to change .. I need to change, others need to change, my government, countries, schools, the world needs to change …. I stay hostage inside this limited view reality! I am still separating things into right and wrong!

As long as I create visions of my ideal world and imagine life as I would like it to be, I am still confining myself inside of old structures, old language, old paradigms. I am unconsciously creating from a place that says things are not Perfect the way they are. God, All That Is, Divinity, Creation, the Universe …needs to transform itself   …or WE need to transform ourselves ….so we can all live the lives we want to live here in this place we call home!!

What if, there is nothing to change, no where to go, except to stop living in and through these confining filters we have created and which are blocking us from being alive inside the Magic we truly BE right now?!!!  What if, the very idea things are not gloriously magical right now is the ONLY thing keeping us from experiencing them?!!

We simply cannot see and experience it through all these filters which we think are creating a wholeness and yet only continue to keep us apart.  Natural is better, holistic is the right way, organic versus chemicals, being “the Light” and not the darkness, awakening, evolving, mirroring, taking on, giving up, breaking through …. dot, dot, dot.

Wholeness, unconditionality embraces and welcomes everything, because it IS everything.  There is nothing to change, transform, become or evolve into, because It already Is that in this very moment.  BREATHE It in! I am It now.  We are It now! There is no time, no distance to cover, nothing to seek and find.  There is only a letting go of all the dogma, words, concepts which have and continue to separate us from that which we already Are and have Always Been and are Being right Now.

No need to call forth or see the Brilliance in another any longer because you KNOW yourself to Be that already, and in Being Brilliance you automatically light that up in everyone around you just by your mere Presence in this world! You are an artist of being Alive in this world!

Become it now, here today! PLAY as you have never played before! Adore everything! Embrace every trace of reality and surrender duality back from whence it came! Magic creates itself for the sheer joy of being.  Experience life as it was meant to be savored with all the flavors, making your own choices, your own voice calling you home into your unique ways of being You.

The velvety darkness of night is as bright as the sun glowing the desert’s diamond sands when fully eaten and ravished.  Find your way into playing a new game in which the rules are not clear and yet you know you know them.  You trust you will live them again into being when your vision clears and the tears of joy river your face, the edges of  your mouth stretched wide, tightly ear to ear.  The time is Here. The door is open and life is calling you home!

© Morgine Jurdan

Nature
flows
microscopic beings
tunneling through the soil
swimming in streams
sun beams warming
growing new life
the magic
is already here
in the food i eat
woven into my clothes
magic flowing
wherever I go
and go and go
elation
alive within its creation
its breath
breathing me
being the air
I  inhale
exhale

through its eyes i see
feeling its heart beating
inside mine
moving my legs
intoxicated
by my beauty
exquisite
it in wonder
it moves with me
it
moving through
the fabric of my body
freely exploring
the magic

i am that
into which i pour myself
expanding contracting
becoming letting go
there is no space
in which i
cease to exist
i am the balance
not  yet experienced
the pause
between breaths

memories
reside inside all cells
alive and thriving
ignored and not explored
arising with my breath
always being invited
to dance with life
i was lost
attempting
to create my own
when home
was always surrounding me
inviting me to dance
into every present moment
nothing “to do”
only say
yes

© Morgine Jurdan 8-26-2011